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Jerry Silvester's avatar

I can eerily relate to so much of this. The excruciating urge to save them, eventually followed by the acceptance that their recognition or desire to save *me* was never going to come, that only I could help myself. I definitely experienced my own version of “alone and undiscovered” (beautifully written). Thank goodness, in many ways, for the moment that emphasised the undeniable self abandonment. Thanks so much for sharing, Hannah 💌

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you for reading! I see you, sister. Glad you’re here

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Arin Mahaffy's avatar

I related to so much of this! I'm also a child of an alcoholic and this is the first time I've read anything as open and honest about it - outside of 12 step meetings. Thank you for sharing!

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Hannah Stella's avatar

And I’m sorry you went through that

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you for reading, Arin!!

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Shayla Tolliver's avatar

Always so blown away by your vulnerability. thank you sharing <3

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you, Shayla!!

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M Lanzotti's avatar

I loved this.also child of alcoholics. This really describes the feeling of having parents that are….well,f#*+#* up! I too had a moment of realization when I was describing some awful moment to my therapist and telling her that well it’s ok, it wasn’t that bad and she said WHAT! That’s terrible. Permission to feel what it was really like.

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Sending love!!

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Dawn Mary Earl-Blesovsky's avatar

Beautifully written Hannah. You are so real. Love you.

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you so much! Love you! Need another reading soon!

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Carmen N's avatar

I always love reading your writing. It feels authentic, brutally honest and often humorous. Thank you for sharing!

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you!! I’m delighted that you see the humor in it!!

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Danielle's avatar

Hi, I am also the adult child of alcoholic parents. I related to this so much from an eating disorder to classy grandparents. Thank you for sharing this. ♥️

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Of course, sending love!

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jennifer's avatar

the last two lines 🩷

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you!

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Allison's avatar

Your honesty and vulnerability are inspiring. Thank you for sharing yourself with the world, Hannah!

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you for reading and being here!! 💕 I appreciate it so much

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Hannah Stella's avatar

Thank you! Proud of you 💕💕

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